Where's My Pen?

Its time to start writing music... now I just need something to write...

Those Who Go Before Us

I had a pseudo rest day yesterday. I went to a coffee shop, had a vanilla chai sat on a couch and read some books. A man walked in with a face I recognized. As he sat down I said to him, "I don't remember your name but I know I know you". He said his name was Tom. I knew Tom from a church I used to go to. He worked with me in the children's church. We talked about his kids that were in the kids church when I was there. They were graduating from high school! Gees.

After we talked for while about that, he mentioned that he had some older children one of which had Lou Gehrig's disease. He spoke about his son's battles with this terrible disease. Once his son had died and the paramedics happened to have a doctor with them when they arrived who knew some special techniques to administer which brought him back to life. After that he was on a breathing machine for another 7 years before he died, 7 years that had not been promised to him... or us. As Tom spoke of his son's death I could see the tears gathering in his eyes, brimming but not overflowing. I could hear in his faulting voice the pain of losing his baby boy followed by his only hope - that he would see him again.

The Struggle: A Record of the Fight of My Life

Some are haunted by the general sense that God exists while others are haunted by the general sense that God does not exist.

In the darkness of a vanishing reality of God, deep conviction as a result of sin has the sweetest taste. It is precious communication from the divine.

One reason I have such a difficulty in absolutely believing in God without a shadow of a doubt is because it seems too good to be true. It would be like having my deepest desires met all at once. That just doesn't line up with my life, therefore it is difficult to believe I could be the recipient of such a great gift. Oh that it would be true!

We as humans desperately need hope. Why? And how did we get ourselves into this predicament?